I'm NOT an OWL

may be desperado... should be the most suitable expression when someone put you just like their own owl. by the time i remember when hermione -well she's harry potters friend- got angry 'cause ron and harry wouldn't talk each other 'caused by their own misunderstanding but the consequence had to be taken over by her own self as their closest person.
now readers, i just feel the same as hermione was. okay it shouldn't be on my mind but now a days it's getting bigger bigger and bigger better we call it snowball effect right inside my mind. i have to teas it away out of me but it's no longer snowball again, it's a huge snowball or might be moon right on my mind now. i wanna share... i wanna share... but how? with whom? when? where? from now on i feel  mostly alone.
each of us has our own routines, our own schedules and our own appointments. even i try so hard to share. they always have their own business. and i either. what you'll gonna say?
okay back to our mission. i feel like an owl, something they belonging and take it only when they need it much. -----turn into bahasa----- memang aku tau kalo itu hidup, hidup dia dan dia bebas berteman dan dekat dan berteman dengan siapapun itu. aku gak punya hak untuk cemburulah irilah atau bahkan benci. toh aku juga suka bergaul. banget malah. tapi yang sangat aku sayangin adalah too much things to hide from your own besties please. apa sih yang enggak aku share buat kalian? -but private really really top private-
i know i'm a good owl for you untuk curhat sampe nangis-nangis, dipukul-pukul, direla-relain tidur larut cuma buat bantuin ngerjain peer, ngedengerin curhatan-curhatan yang meski aku enggak ikut andil dalam masalah itu juga tetep aku bantuin, nyampein pesen buat yang lagi gak mau saling kontak, ini itu lah sini situ lah aku temenin aku bantuin tapi kenapa aku cuma dianggap only an owl yang didatengin dan dielus-elus cuma kalo lagi butuh.
okay i'm not an owl of you -even if i love owl-. i'm your friend whether you realize it or not. i wanna be there when you laugh and cry. but, overall i love you my friends.... :*

P.S. even i know my friends're my evils too